The issue here..
...is perceptions like "your boss driving a new Mercedes, etc." My Boss drives a 2003 GMC Jimmy. I drive a 2005 Scion XB. He lives in a nicer house, but he bought during a housing bust - I bought during a boom. You are - wrongly - transposing your views/experiences to others. Sure, my boss makes more than I do; but not a heck of a lot more and he earns every penny through additional responsibility and a great deal of hard work.
For every complaint I could lodge against the place I work – and the folk who run it – I cannot say that they eat cake whilst the proles beg for crusts of bread. My boss makes mistakes – we all do including myself – but I will unreservedly say he’s a good person.
Regarding the angst bit…you are wrong. There is no angst over any of this, merely frustration. Regardless of the number of words – 150, 1200 or otherwise – I don’t seem capable of providing adequate context. This is doubly frustrating for me; as a sysadmin it means having someone analyse and comment on my professional capability whilst starting from incorrect assumptions.
As a writer, I seem to lack the ability to convey information in such a manner as to be capable of correcting those false assumptions. This generates no more angst than a website install requiring a mod_security alteration that I don’t know off the top of my head. It generates more frustration however, because I can Google the mod_security alteration. I am as yet inexperienced enough to know which syntax to enter into which search engine to alter misperceptions.
As to “commenting too much on my own articles,” you’re probably right. I made the mistake of assuming that certain commenters – yourself among them – were willing and capable to of absorbing additional facts that might then alter extant misperceptions. Unlike the many of the other authors here on El Reg I started as a commenter first. Long debates moderated by her excellence Madam Bee are not foreign to me.
Make no mistake, I welcome criticism and suggestions. I have a deep respect for the staff and commenters on El Reg. In many of my articles there have been excellent suggestions…several of which I have tested and which have made their way into my production environment. I wrote an article here about how I got lucky and recovered a RAID 5. A half dozen people came out of the woodwork and proclaimed “RAIDX is dead! Long live ZFS!” I haven’t had much opportunity to work with ZFS in the past 18 months or so, but these comments have inspired me to go forth and set up a test lab to see exactly what it is I am missing.
Where it all falls down for me – personally and professionally – are the circular arguments. I have absolutely no idea how to deal with them. The religious argument is a great example:
10 The bible is infallible.
20 How do you know it’s infallible?
30 Because the Bible is the word of God.
40 How can you be sure it’s the word of God?
50 Because the Bible tells us so.
60 Why believe the Bible?
70 GOTO 10
I am unable to deal with those arguments. I do not know how to “win” them. When trapped in them, I know of no graceful way out of them. Whilst I can deal with technical, political or religious arguments about many topics, I have this personal failing when it comes to circular reasoning. When you and I have an argument along the lines of:
10 X is terrible, you should Y.
20 I had no funds for Y, I had no choice but to X.
30 There is always money available!
40 I promise you there is no way there was funding to Y, I had to X.
50 GOTO 10
I expect experience will give me a greater chance of seeing these sorts of logic loops and avoiding them. I hope experience grants me the ability to at some point learn how to gracefully exit these sorts of pointless conversations. Until that point in my individual development however, I fear circular reasoning loops will continue to be my personal kryptonite.